everything changes, and everything stays the same

maybe it’s not what i thought it was
maybe life is different
maybe somebody told me before
maybe i didn’t hear it
freedom’s been making it’s way to me
but will i ever find it?
running from responsibility
because i don’t wanna fight it

runaway from the pain
runaway from the sorrow
runaway from the blame
runaway from tomorrow
if you’re not responsible for this
then what’s with your shame?
empty out your emptiness
find your great escape

whatever happened to fairy tales?
why don’t things turn out perfect?
i’ve never found what they call true love
but am i really looking for it
i don’t understand why i’m missing out
i don’t understand this life
and i don’t want responsibility
because i don’t wanna fight it

runaway from the pain
runaway from the sorrow
runaway from the blame
runaway from tomorrow
if you’re not responsible for this
then what’s with your shame?
empty out your emptiness
find your great escape

can you find, can you find, can you find it?
will you find, will you find, will you find it?
why can’t you find, can’t you find, can’t you find it?
you’ll never find, never find, never mind it

http://www.myspace.com/joshmeltonmusic - Runaway

I saw a dead baby this morning

I saw a dead baby this morning.

 

Born breathless and naked on a Friday.  Dressed warmly and tucked into a casket on Saturday.  The joy of new life exchanged for the despair of unexpected death.

 

Life’s not fair.  Neither is death.  It’s empty… it’s cold… it’s cruel.

 

When I got home tonight, I walked by my wife setting up a new crib and couldn’t help but think of two parents who will struggle to sleep tonight b/c they’re haunted by the grief of an empty crib.

 

There are some things in this life that we will never make sense of.  I witnessed one this morning.  Where is God in a new born baby’s casket?

 

I wish I could describe my feelings better tonight, but I can’t.  I believe there’s a meaning to all of this, but I’m not sure I want to know what it is.  The link below is to a song that I hope you’ll listen to if you read this, particularly the 3rd verse. It doesn’t offer any answers, but I feel like it may ask the question a little better.  Vice Verses

denver must be nice

run, go ahead, run away from here
and leave your past behind
never stop running from all of your fear
run away from your mind
find yourself out west in a beautiful sunset
let the pacific tide wash your old dreams away
step to the edge of the mountains inside of you
but never look down into your yesterday

you’re so far above me, a mile high in the sky
out of my life but not out of my mind
you’re so far above me, a star in the sky
out of my sight, not out of my night
you’re so far, you’re so far, you’re so far above me

step by step into your new life
where do you go from here?
all to embrace this new world in front of you
but what do you see in the mirror?
a life of your own without any mistakes
a land of no failure, perfect dreams of success
or do you think of the life you left behind
and let the tears rob you of what is for best

you’re so far above me, a mile high in the sky
out of my life but not out of my mind
you’re so far above me, a star in the sky
out of my sight, not out of my night
you’re so far, you’re so far, you’re so far above me

it was the hardest thing i ever had to do
breaking your heart, walking away from you
i know it was right and now i can see
it was the only way i could put you above me, so far above me